Cikgu mengamok, pelajar mintak maaf

3 09 2008

I’ve never had to apologize for who I am.

It’s my life and things has gone pretty well all this while. Things I did in school, it is who I am. I always strive for the best. Yesterday I was furious with my top (yelah tu) class. Some of them were taking task given too mildly. Kerja rumah yang aku bagi tu bukannya susah pun! Senang sangat dengan taraf pendidikan dwang tu, tapi tetap tak nak buat. Hapeeeeeeeeeeeeee lagi………..!! Naik anginlah aku…

“You ni dah form 4! Dah 16 tahun.. Bukan budak-budak lagi. Takkan semua benda I nak marah-marah! Dah besar panjang dah! You ingat I suka ke nak marah-marah, buang masa I je tau! You guys ni tak boleh bagi muka. Kalau bagi muka, macam ni lah! I AM NOT UR FRIEND THAT YOU CAN PAT MY BACK!! I AM UR TEACHER!! Trust me, bila I cakap, kalau you tak mahu buat kerja yang cikgu bagi, ilmu yang cikgu bagi, I tell you… You percaya lahhhh… One day you akan menyesal. Doa cikgu ni mustajab you jangan main-main.. Kalau you dapat A in chemistry, dapat A in Physics pun tak guna kalau tak credit in English!!!!! You apply mana-mana pun tak akan dapat.. Percayalah cakap cikgu ni! Bla bla bla”

There I go for about 15 minutes. Kan dah buang masa tu! Later, all of them come to me, I thought they wanted to send their delayed homework, but they were too many of them.. I was curious. Munirah broke the silence and apologize on behalf of them for being so rude and ignorant. Open apologize at the teachers room. Can you believe it?! I didn’t expecting any of that, but I was honored. I ni cepat lupakan salah orang, I pemaaf tapi.. Hmmm….It was a great feeling for me.

Today, sama jugak dengan my middle class, ada yang tak nak buat kerja rumah, even the simplest home work pun tak nak buat. Ada yang tak nak buat dan ada yang sengaja tak nak buat.. yang sengaja tak nak buat tu tadi terus buat on the spot dan yang tak nak buat tu, well, go die already! Su.ka hati kau lah. I see no future in you anyways. Aku mengamuk jugak dalam 15 minit. Siap suruh yang tak siap kerja tu keluar depan. Merasa. Buang masa aku tau!!

I mean, the truth is, I literally don’t have time in the day to do all I need to do. I will probably never know whether if I did absolutely nothing besides go to class, read, and write, if then there would be enough time. But, as a human being, I also want to be the best at what I do. For the time being, being a good teacher..

Aku rasa, (dan memang dah terbukti), aku tak boleh buat baik langsung dengan pelajar. There must be a gap between me and them. For this past week, aku tak senyum langsung and I was very serious in class, and it helps.. 80% of the students did their home/school work and for me, it’s an achievement that I’ve been waiting for the past 3 months.

Beria la aku sebelum ni buat baik dengan students, lepak-lepak, konon approachable! Hampeh!!! It doesn’t work!! What works is being VERY FIRM and NEVER TOLERATE mereka yang tak nak buat homework! Kalau kau tak nak buat, kau datang sekolah buat apa!!!!???!!! Tadi pun aku mengamuk benda yang sama. Don’t take education for granted! Percayalah, nanti lepas SPM, kalau korang tak dapat result elok, baru korang tahu apa itu DIPANDANG HINA SANAK SAUDARA DAN ORANG RAMAI! Tu diaahhh cikgu dah mengamuk!

I just feel like maybe I wasn’t enough, even though I know that’s kind of ridiculous. And although I don’t regret anything, simply because I don’t think I could or would have done things any differently, it still sucks. Simple as that.

While I have other posts that I want to catch up on, I think it’s safe to say that this blog may change direction soon. I’m not sure where exactly. I have only been though orientation and the program is already very humbling.

But for now, I hope all is well. You will hear from me shortly. At first it might be catching up, some stories to tell ect, but I do hope that I will keep everything relevant to the subject at hand: Good teaching.

Ted Baker

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16 responses

3 09 2008
areps

yessszzaaa… u made it. i suke cikgu garang2 ni..

pasni dtg bilik i ambik anugerah ok..

3 09 2008
axim

wow garangnya cikgu ini..

tapi memang betul pun..kalau u tak betulkan diorang sapa lagi yang nak di harapkan..semoga ur student cemerlang gemilang dan terbilang hendaknya yaa…

3 09 2008
conan_skywalker

bagus la ko mngamuk. biar diorg tau.
budak2 skolah skrg ni mmg besar kpala. bukan nk skolah sgt pun.

4 09 2008
ombk

hye…tak de chat box lah nak comment….anywy..blog u pun gempak gak…suka lah cekgu yg garang2 ni…tapi jgn garang sgt kang tak pasal2 kete kene calar nanti…bdk2 skrg ni kan semua ..kureng sikit ajar…hehehe

anywy selamat berkhidmat sebagai guru…
keep in touch ok…
chow ..cin cau

4 09 2008
ombk

hehehe ape pun keep in touch ok.

4 09 2008
ombk

buat lah permintaan ni…..buat lah chat box..senang nak sembang2

4 09 2008
areps

ayooo ada yang lain nak melangut d blog hang ka?
i ingat i sorang jer.

btw.. tajuk entry macam headline METRO!!!

once a journalist always la kan…

xoxo

4 09 2008
cendana287

Alamak! Apparently, in contrast to what I had previously thought for the past week, you were actually very active at your blog. I was wondering “why Ted is so quiet … sibuk dengan kerja kamaknya”.

When I came here directly (am testing the Google Chrome browser), it became clear: my RSS feed settings were wrong!

I’ll set them correctly in both Mozilla Thunderbird and the browsers that I use – Semua ada … Firefox, Internet Explorer, Opera, Amaya, Flock, SeaMonkey… (But I mostly use Firefox and Opera).

Thanks for your last comment at my blog – at that particular post. You are capable of very deep thoughts indeed; not something too common among “younger people”. Or at least I wasn’t at your level when I was around that age.

Yes, I was surprised to see your prophecy of “many visitors coming to my blog” coming true! And to think that I was smiling and thinking then of “How super-optimistic Ted is!” It happened just like that, unplanned. That’s another proof of God’s power…

But your latest comment of it becoming “more than thousands”…?? Err, that can only mean MILLIONS?! You might be stretching it *a bit* too far now!:-) But as I had said, “the power of God”… Regardless of anything, I pray that “everything that happens will be for my best”. And only God know *what* is really the best, not us (we only think this or that is “the best”, not sure)

The hit list has dipped down sharply, of course, but that’s expected. And it still is now in the hundreds-plus per day, which is rather decent (previously it was just from 4 to 27). The great thing is that I’ve now come to know a few more people “like you, Arep and mekyam” – the original core of friends and supporters who had encouraged and inspired me to continue.

Right now I’m VERY busy with things directly related to the blog … posts, comments, private e-mails etc. Have to charge RM10 each time, baru boleh jadi rhok nak hidup – I have to make a living too, you know!:-) Well, things are becoming clearer now … my experiences and sufferings were for a good reason and purpose by God – I must accept my responsibility as one of His Tools for others to benefit.

4 09 2008
cendana287

Aisey, silap dalam closing HTML tag yang Bold tu. Ted, tolong repair sikit, ok? Jadi nampak tak elok pulak comment saya keluar camtu.

4 09 2008
thegossiplounge

Its just fine Abg Mat. No biggie! (“,)

4 09 2008
thegossiplounge

Arep: Kan!!!!

4 09 2008
thegossiplounge

Arep: Bila nak beli tiket balik KB? Dah lupa projek ke? Biadap!!!!

5 09 2008
khairul

Ted ni pun satu permintaan gak…tolong wat shout box k….
bab garang2 ni teringat zaman sekolah,masa duk dalam sekolah x terasa tapi
bila dah blah baru lah nak menyesal…
ayat yg u pakai tu sama dgn cikgu saya pakai hehhee

5 09 2008
love-n-hate

hmm… you remind me of my sister… she’s a teacher and she was always being nice to her students… until one day… jeng jeng jeng

about similar situation like yours… she gave ‘maki’ to her students and they behaved!

jgn bagi muka sangat… belasah je cukup²! bila lagi kan?

8 09 2008
Captain HooKeD

Never in my life, so kurang ajar, rude and never in my life kan aku tak pernah tak buat homework aku biarpun cikgu tuh benci tengok aku sebab aku suka tanya soklan yg mencabar minda depa, maklumla masa time aku cikgu hanya grad maktab, ramai pula yg tak bermotivasi mengajar, juz like melepaskan batuk di tangga, but when I read your entry, mak nak menitis air maTa nok, mak bangga masih ada guru yang mengajar dengan hati yg ikhlas seperti uols. Mak doakan agar Allah murahkan rezeki uols selalu. Amin. Selamat menyambut ramadhan

12 09 2008
sukaria71

tips belajar clik here… http://lohanranau.blogspot.com

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